I am sorry

I can't say it in your face
So I'll jut type it anyways

I love you
I really do
The most amazing love
That I have never seen so pure.

You may not understand
What is in my head
But it's ok not to comprehend
All the thoughts that I can get.

You try your best
But I don't succeed
It is not your fault
It is such a big amount
of my agriness that you receive

You shouldn't have to handle me
Neither my crazyness
Or anything like that

You are so fresh and pure
I'm scared of never being cured
And here comes all my yelling that you get

You don't deserve any of that.
I love you.
I am sorry I am such a fuck up

Fuck you

Fuck you, authorities
Stop telling me what to do
I am nothing like you

You compare me to yourself
You forget I'm someone else
You force me back into my shell
You turn my life into a living hell
And now you claim you just want to help

You're a liar
A bitch
A dick

You should be fired
Gave my soul a scar so thick

And again,

Fuck you!

Self harm

Cuts on her legs
Cuts on her wrists
Cuts on her belly
Not to mention the chest

Cuts are getting bigger
The skin is getting purple
Cuts are getting thicker
And they become a struggle

For me,
It's an addiction
But an affliction
Is what you see

Don't tell me to stop cutting
Or even stop crying
I'm cutting to feel alive
'Cause inside I'm dying

Oh, Skinny love

Come on, Skinny love
Just last a night
Drinks to numb her mind
Forgets what's right
My, my, my
Keep asking why
My, my, my                                                           
She's losing her life.                

             Oh, Skinny love
             Just last the week
             She's starving herself
             But the meal's here
             My, my, my
             She began to faint
             My, my, my
             Everyone's away                 
                                                        
                                     Oh, Skinny love
                                     Just last the month
                                     He keeps calling
                                     But she refuses to answer the phone                                                       
                                     My, my, my
                                     She feels so weak
                                     My, my, my
                                     Nobody's here

                                                               Come on, Skinny love
                                                               Just last the year
                                                               Now she has no pulse
                                                               She was never here
                                                               My, my, my
                                                               Keep wondering why
                                                               My, my, my
                                                              She lived a lie
                                                              My, my, my
                                                              Finally lost her life

"Love"?

Love?
What is that?
Can I feel it?
Will I ever regret?

Love
It's a weird word
A strange feeling
I can feel no more.

Love?!
Why does that bother me so much?
I can love nobody
They were all just a crush

Love.
Is anything but me
I'm unable to feel it
Why can't you see?

Empty croud

So many reasons to lie
But no reasons to live
All I want is to die
And my soul they shall keep

Tears come down my face
But I feel nothing anymore
All the love, I gave it away
So all that's left's a dirty whore

I'm dying
And I've been lying
Laying in bed while crying
Somewhere else I should be flying

Will he come home?
Does he need to be saved?
Why are we so alone?
There's no one else to blame.

They found the drugs
She had a stroke
I'm cutting again
The family's broke

It's all my fault
It started when I came

It's all my fault
I can only cause pain

It's all my fault
I should've gone away

It's all my fault
But for you I'll pray.

Anxiety attack

Breath
Breath
Breath
Anxiety is here again

Breath
Breath
Breath
Can you just stop doing that?

Breath
Breath
Breath
How can you stay so calm?

Breath
Breath
Breath
Can't you see what's all around?

Breath
Breath
Breath
What the hell is wrong now?

Breath
But, wait...
What was I going to say?
Oh, yeah.
What the hell is going on?

Breath
Stop telling me that
Oh, shit. Anxiety is here
And it is chasing me again.