Sad craziness

Life is hell
Or is it just my mind
It sounds louder than bells
And it feels like you're stuck inside
Stuck inside this hell
The hell that is your mind
built by depression
which is an aggression
In this dark world of mine

        Goodbye

My my my mind

What happened here?
Why's there so much fear?
They started praying the creed
As if the evil'd disappear
But this is a place where there's no peace
                                 Welcome to my mind

A scary place to live in
Where nobody's forgiving
A dark place that everybody's leaving
It's even hard to feel you're breathing
                                 Welcome to my mind

This is where I overdose in pills
Everything's a new appeal
Most of the things will never heal
It is happening, the pain I can't even feel
                                That is my mind

I am crazy
That's for sure
I am crazy
There is no cure.

                                Not for my mind.

I am sorry

I can't say it in your face
So I'll jut type it anyways

I love you
I really do
The most amazing love
That I have never seen so pure.

You may not understand
What is in my head
But it's ok not to comprehend
All the thoughts that I can get.

You try your best
But I don't succeed
It is not your fault
It is such a big amount
of my agriness that you receive

You shouldn't have to handle me
Neither my crazyness
Or anything like that

You are so fresh and pure
I'm scared of never being cured
And here comes all my yelling that you get

You don't deserve any of that.
I love you.
I am sorry I am such a fuck up

Fuck you

Fuck you, authorities
Stop telling me what to do
I am nothing like you

You compare me to yourself
You forget I'm someone else
You force me back into my shell
You turn my life into a living hell
And now you claim you just want to help

You're a liar
A bitch
A dick

You should be fired
Gave my soul a scar so thick

And again,

Fuck you!

Self harm

Cuts on her legs
Cuts on her wrists
Cuts on her belly
Not to mention the chest

Cuts are getting bigger
The skin is getting purple
Cuts are getting thicker
And they become a struggle

For me,
It's an addiction
But an affliction
Is what you see

Don't tell me to stop cutting
Or even stop crying
I'm cutting to feel alive
'Cause inside I'm dying

Oh, Skinny love

Come on, Skinny love
Just last a night
Drinks to numb her mind
Forgets what's right
My, my, my
Keep asking why
My, my, my                                                           
She's losing her life.                

             Oh, Skinny love
             Just last the week
             She's starving herself
             But the meal's here
             My, my, my
             She began to faint
             My, my, my
             Everyone's away                 
                                                        
                                     Oh, Skinny love
                                     Just last the month
                                     He keeps calling
                                     But she refuses to answer the phone                                                       
                                     My, my, my
                                     She feels so weak
                                     My, my, my
                                     Nobody's here

                                                               Come on, Skinny love
                                                               Just last the year
                                                               Now she has no pulse
                                                               She was never here
                                                               My, my, my
                                                               Keep wondering why
                                                               My, my, my
                                                              She lived a lie
                                                              My, my, my
                                                              Finally lost her life

"Love"?

Love?
What is that?
Can I feel it?
Will I ever regret?

Love
It's a weird word
A strange feeling
I can feel no more.

Love?!
Why does that bother me so much?
I can love nobody
They were all just a crush

Love.
Is anything but me
I'm unable to feel it
Why can't you see?