Have you ever known depression?

Have you ever
Felt so depressed
You couldn't even feel your body?

Have you ever
Done what they told you not to do
Just to act a little naughty?

Have you ever
Sliced your skin
Just to feel something?

Have you ever
Done drugs
Because your mind felt like nothing?

Have you ever
Starved yourself
Just so you could feel in control?

Have you ever
lost your mind
But you had to cry it low?

Well, I have.

Endless pain

Endless pain

Won't go away

Endless pain

Will find its way

To me

Endless pain

Doesn't let me speak

Endless pain

Is tourturing me

Endless pain

Please leave

Endless pain

Let me breath

Endless pain

Has drowned me

I died

Of pain.

The Endless pain

Never went away

Lonely

You're here

But I'm so far away

I never let you say

What I need to hear

I'm such a 

Child

Whore

Wild

Hardcore

                        girl

I'm sorry

I push everyone away

From this hole

That is my world

But, really...

what else can I actually say?

Crazy

The world is so full of hate

Hate and desire.

I think they admire

Someone else's pain

It's just that easy to say

You want to be insane.

For me, sanity

Feels so far away

You're so lazy

To understand

What "crazy"

Means to me

What's going on, father?

I screamed
I screamed
I cried for help

You're my father
You should help me
If it's not you
Then who else?

I knew
That you knew
About those problems before

I just pretended
You didn't know
That my soul was so poor

I thought I could trust you
I thought you would help
But now I must find
I must find someone else

I've been trying
Some help I've been looking for
They also pretended they didn't know
And now I feel like a fucking whore

I would cry in your chest
But you never hugged me back
Here I'll be stuck
I still wish you the best

"Help me", I screamed
But you pretended you didn't hear
"What's going on, father?", I asked
You didn't answer
And it still fills me up with fear.

I am disappointed
I thought I could trust you
Obviously I was wrong
I hope it doesn't kill you too
Because, after all, I still love you.

Bittersweeting

I'm in love with the air
But I can't breath
I'm in love with the night
But I can't sleep
I'm in love with this place
But I must leave
And I'm in love with you
But you can't see it.

Care

Words

          are so full
             
                            of emptiness