God, you're a lie

First

You gave me love

And than brutally

Took it away from me

Second

You gave me hope

Gave a place to stay

A place to call home

You gave me friends

But took them back

Also took my sanity

Took my life breath

And then you gave me

A pretty thing to love

Just to make it fucking crazy

Make it hate me too much

And then you gave me lonliness

You made me bad

Until my heart stopped beating

You made it beat again

For someone who loved me back

You filled me up with hope

And on my knees I begged

"Please, Father

Please don't take him

Please make it last"

Not even a week later

I could hear Satan's laugh

You were by his side

Holding his hands

You gave me everything

Just to take them back

They clame You're pure love

But love doesn't make you rad

You're nothing but a lie 

God's dead

And so am I

Kill or run

This is not a Nicholss Sparks' book

Or a Steven Spielberg's movie

This is real life, bitch

Our scars can prove it

Nobody keeps promises

Specially when they say

"I'll never leave you, babe"

'Cause nobody can put up with us this way

So you stay alive

Or don't you hesitate

You can live with your demons

Or you can go away

Alcoholic

The bad thing

Of drinking vodka and rum

Is that I never really know

When I've had enough

I drink to oblivion

I drink way too much

'Till I see things duplicated

'Till I think "Oh, Fuck!"

3 AM Thoughts

Lonely

Again

At 3 AM

My bruises and cuts

Are driving me nuts

I want to call you

But it's too late

I'm sorry

I realky like you

And I know you like me too

I just don't want you to go away

Like they all do

Lovely

I think it's funny how we say

"I never felt this way"

When we're in love

We actually have

We just don't recall a feeling of that

You see

When we're in love

We go through things of the above

And others

Like

Fast beating hart

A passion that goes too far

And hate

After the couple falls apart

But

It's just beautiful

How we keep seeking love

We keep seeking that feeling

That gives life a good meaning

Makes me write cheap poetry

Love is nothing

Other than lovely

Alright

So much hate inside

Of my heart, I think

I might have

Fallen 

Apart

Evil's little babe

I've once been an angel

Who got fucked hard

Start praying the Hail Mary

For my broken mind

Bitch

Slut

Little fucker

Making them ich

Like no one's ever done

They say they love me

They'll get fucked too

Once I'm fucking dead

They'll wish they knew

What the fuck was wrong with me

I'm supposed to be on prozac

I'm on heroin instead

Thanks, life

For letting me die

As they said,

"God's dead"

But, baby, don't say that

It's a sinners' world, hun

I'll laught at them

After I cut mu wrists 

And let them wish

The best for me