domingo, 23 de novembro de 2014

Sober nightmare

I just wanna scream my pain so a the world could hear it.
I'd scream names so everyone would know
What happened to me before
And all the things I could never let go

I wish they'd regret everything they did to me
I wish I'd remember everything I did to them
I can't deal with this pain anymore
Can't deal with this ever again

Why am I depressed?
Everything is in place 
Why have I collapsed?
I think I've lost my faith

Where's love
Where's hope
Where's sanity
Depression will choke me



Nobody will save you

terça-feira, 14 de outubro de 2014


No one ever told you how beautiful you are. Not even me, I think, when I should have. 
Well, you are beautiful and talented. You can do great things and you can be a great person. I was really hoping that you'd be happy, but it doesn't seem like that's what happened.
I hope I never see you again. But I also hope you get better and stop hating me until you understand things a little better. I hope you get better. I hope you get to be happy sometime soon. 

sexta-feira, 10 de outubro de 2014

About now

Once upon a time
There was a fucked up girl
Who wanted to taste 
Everything in the world

From alcohol to meth
From being alive to being dead
From great memories to regrets
From the future to the past

She was a whore
She was a saint
She was mental
And she was sane

She had 3 boyfriends

The Poet
The Manwhore
And The One
(At least she thought so)

The Poet was crazy
He thought he loved her
He thought she was amazing
Until he ruined her

She got scared
And ran away
Until the next 
Stupid boyfriend came

The Manwhore was a trap
She thought she loved him
Until she realized
He was such a twat

He broke her
As bad as The Poet did
She ran away to become
The whore she used to be

And then The One came 
Just to mess with her mind
He was just so strange
She thought he was also some lie

Was he trouble?
Was he a mess?
Maybe he was
The best you can get 

He smelled like home
He tasted sweet
But most important
He made her scream

He's really nice
She loves him now
We truly hope
He won't break his vows

Never said

I know
The poet still writes a about me
I know
The manwhore still screams my name
I just know
What all the lost souls say
And I'm so sorry
Things ended this way  

domingo, 27 de julho de 2014

You could be my drug addict and I could be your Jessica

I don't know what's with you 
that makes me feel so young and free.
I wanna be forever with you 
Getting high on hydroponic weed

I think it's your badass attitude 
Or maybe you unusual sweet soul indeed
It's just something about you
Not even you can see 

It's too early to say I love you
But we know I kinda do
And that's quiet ok
Cause I know you'd love me too

terça-feira, 1 de julho de 2014

Said the clock

Tick tock 
Says the clock
Driving me nuts
Neck tied in a knot 

What are six months
What are three years
Why'd you think you'd still be here?

Tick tock
Says the clock
Last time I checked
I was mad at God

He gave you for me
Just to take you away
He fills me up with home
And in the end it's just more pain

Tick tock
Says the clock
No problem's solved
Here we are lost

sexta-feira, 23 de maio de 2014


I smell like alcohol
And cigarettes

I smell like dumbness
And all of my regrets 

domingo, 11 de maio de 2014

R.I.P., Gabriel D.

Sitting on the moon
You must be fishing stars
Stars that shine like you
You shine as bright

Bright as the tears
Than here on earth we cry
Thinking of the time
We could've said goodbye

Drink the liquor of the angels
And their tasteful dark cigars
As here we pray
With all our heart

RIP, big brother!
And thank you for everything

domingo, 9 de março de 2014

God, you're a lie

You gave me love
And than brutally
Took it away from me

You gave me hope
Gave a place to stay
A place to call home

You gave me friends
But took them back
Also took my sanity
Took my life breath

And then you gave me
A pretty thing to love
Just to make it fucking crazy
Make it hate me too much

And then you gave me lonliness
You made me bad
Until my heart stopped beating

You made it beat again
For someone who loved me back

You filled me up with hope
And on my knees I begged
"Please, Father
Please don't take him
Please make it last"

Not even a week later
I could hear Satan's laugh
You were by his side
Holding his hands

You gave me everything
Just to take them back
They clame You're pure love
But love doesn't make you rad

You're nothing but a lie 
God's dead
And so am I

quarta-feira, 26 de fevereiro de 2014

Kill or run

This is not a Nicholss Sparks' book
Or a Steven Spielberg's movie
This is real life, bitch
Our scars can prove it

Nobody keeps promises
Specially when they say
"I'll never leave you, babe"
'Cause nobody can put up with us this way

So you stay alive
Or don't you hesitate
You can live with your demons
Or you can go away

sexta-feira, 21 de fevereiro de 2014


The bad thing
Of drinking vodka and rum
Is that I never really know
When I've had enough

I drink to oblivion
I drink way too much
'Till I see things duplicated
'Till I think "Oh, Fuck!"

quarta-feira, 5 de fevereiro de 2014

3 AM Thoughts

At 3 AM

My bruises and cuts
Are driving me nuts

I want to call you
But it's too late

I'm sorry
I realky like you
And I know you like me too
I just don't want you to go away
Like they all do

domingo, 5 de janeiro de 2014


I think it's funny how we say
"I never felt this way"

When we're in love

We actually have
We just don't recall a feeling of that

You see

When we're in love
We go through things of the above

And others

Fast beating hart
A passion that goes too far
And hate
After the couple falls apart

It's just beautiful
How we keep seeking love

We keep seeking that feeling
That gives life a good meaning

Makes me write cheap poetry

Love is nothing
Other than lovely